The writer has for a long time wished to converse with Bishop Lefevere but pressure of circumstances has prevented her doing so until now. She would have openly spoken to the Bishop when he came to Bertrand in January 1845 but God impenetrable did not permit it. For two years she has not been able to communicate her troubles and temptations. She desires to found a new Convent under the direction of Bishop Lefevere. This desire has not prevented her from doing all that the good God has wished of her as a member of the community. It had always been her wish to embrace a calling for foreign missions but she has never had any contact with a community devoted to that type of work. After passing some time in the convent, the Father General Basil Moreau proposed that she was ready to pronounce her vows. She was 18 years old at the time. She felt that she could not be better prepared for her mission and the date for her departure to America was settled the day after. During her sojourn in America her one desire has been to found a Convent not of herself but under the Bishop's direction. For six months or a year she has not opened her soul to her director for she felt he would laugh at the idea. The first time that she did speak of it to Father Edward Sorin he thought that the object of our community would not be the same here as in France so he changed the aim entirely. Father Sorin counselled her not to think of these things and for a long time she followed this advice until now when she is no longer able to because of her intense interior suffering. She knows that this is a sign that God demands another thing of her and if her superior would permit her to accomplish it found a new Convent her soul would recapture its liberty and joy in the service of God. Her confessor has not judged it proper for her to write Bishop Lefevere about all this because he felt that the Convent at Bertrand needed her and that her going away would be an injustice to the community of which she was one of the first members. She thinks otherwise and feels that her soul will find its peace after the Bishop's decision. She assures the Bishop that he will find in her a person devoted to the glory of God should God inspire him to promote her desire. On the contrary, should the Bishop find that these are but temptations and illusions, she is ready to accept this as coming from God. She is writing without the permission of Father Sorin. She ends by saying that she feels that though she has written without giving all the details, these are sufficient for one with his wisdom. :: III-2-h A.L.S. French 3pp. 8vo.